Mind of Bigyellow

A special day as a line, different important things were done before and after.

After reading the news, feel so sad with these people, and so shame on the government. The news from wall street journal online. ******************************************************************************* In Spat Over Asylum Policy, Beijing Refuses Return Of Illegal Entrants By JUNE KRONHOLZ July 31, 2006; Page A4 What can the U.S. do if a huge trading partner like China won't take back thousands of illegal immigrants? Not much, apparently. In a spat over U.S. asylum policy, China is refusing to take back 40,000 deportable immigrants, insisting that asylum-seekers such as Falun Gong members and other political opponents of Beijing be returned as well. That has put the U.S. in a sticky position. If illegal immigrants "are not accepted back, then, for all intents and purposes, they are free to remain in this country because we have no place to remove them to," Homeland Security Secretary Michael Chertoff recently told an audience at the American Enterprise Institu...

I almost did not wear the t-shirt alone this summer, always have a jacket on when I went outside. Most of time the temperature is lower than 20 c-degree. Totally did not get the feeling of summer. What a pity.

This is a question.

Black June is passed. Welcome a new July.

Tomorrow is Middle Summer Festival, which has the longest daytime in a year. I will go out and catch up the sun in the nidnight. Summer, everything is perfect except the anonying mosquito.

Spring HAS came here already. I like the weather, and I love the life.

The depression is continuing, I miss the life and friends in Denmark. Here is too silent and small to expand my wing. My mind in vacant, I have no idea what I am doing and I do not what should I do in furture. Well, I know what should I do, but I can not concentrate myself on the work. I always want to do some work, but failed again and again. I need some change, but I do not know. I expect my darling's coming can bring me 200% fresh air.

Boss told me currently there is not any available project, possiblely I will do some company internal development project. I do not like it, perhaps I should find some new development in somewhere else, but not in Finland.

This year's Forbes Billionaires. My dreaming, sweet dream.

From last Sunday 18:00, the bus drivers in Finland start their strike. Damn it, the weather here is less than -20 c. I am freezing everyday. This year, I know what is real winter, such cold days, I hate here.

Near the ending, I spend a lot time on doing nothing which should be used to do something meaningful. What I got is something almost like nothing, and what I waste is something invaluable. Of course I know what I was doing, but I am not able to control myself. I do not know how to wake me up, I am trapped. To terrible!

Now my feeling like the sky of Oulu, dark without light.

I just felt the managers or leader also have a lot of annoyance, because of such stupid employees as me.

Stop spending too much precious time on the stupid video game. If mentally tired, do physicall exercise, and vice versa. If both happened, found some funny to relax. Not too much, the time is not really that much as it look likes.

To be honest, I am really unhappy recently. I can not stand this alone life, I hope I and my lover can get together sooner. Similar things in work as well. The communication with Finns is not that interesting, and I do not have a clear mind of what I will do in the future. This confused me. I do not know, if I should continue staying here, or move to Helsinki, or even Copenhagen if any chance. Too much I do not know. I feel lost in the cold icyweather. p.s: This morning, the tempreture felt down to -29 C, and predicted keep falling in next 2 days. kcuF the damn weather and my chaos mind.

How did I waste the whole day today. Suck!

The first week this year has been passed, so rapidly. 1/52 of this yeas has gone, but I am still living in last year.

Keep investment goals and strategy clear. Distrust all gurus Do not predict the future, but be prepared. If can not stay still, freeze a large part of your portfolio. Try a news fast. There is always good news and bad news. Something big is always happening. One of the market gurus has to be right.

To be honest, I do not like the winter here, not because of its cold, but its dark. I can not recall when is the last time I saw the sun. I really miss it..